Yesterday n today

Pensive evenings before the ember flames
as memories flash before my eyes
I see myself standing here, now
and my heart starts to cry….

For I see myself smile there
laugh away with a carefree heart
Yet my lips do not smile anymore,
it is wrinkled, hesitant and restrained …

I wave away feelings without a second thought
Like the sands blowing from a mountain top
There has been times when I wait with a blade
in my hands, yet I know the memories survive…

Torn between hope and reality
I don’t know where I stand
I see death at the last avenge to life
maybe I’ll find peace in a distant land…